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I have been so frustrated over the last few days. I wrote something, but it disappointed me. I even posted it. I hope no one read it. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so crushed and stupid at the same time. I just want everything to be fine. I can’t live like this. I am intensely upset with myself. I don’t mean half of what I know I’ve been doing, and I feel really bad about how I’ve been dealing with my life. Everything is fucked up. I am sorry to everyone, but I wish I wasn’t sorry to anyone. I can’t do anything right. I thought I could try to fix some of my problems, but I couldn’t. I think I am too late. I can’t figure this out. I hate myself. Everyday. People have tried to give me advice, but honestly, fuck them. I am insane. I am crazy. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I may not know what I’m doing, but I do know when someone is dead wrong. I think I still have a few friends, but that’s unknown. I really wish I could just hold close and provide comfort and make everything okay. I’m sorry I’m too scared to reply. I don’t know what I would say. I don’t want it to end. I really hate myself for that. Fuck this, I can’t write anymore. I can’t do anything.